Dear Bloggers, I realize I asked my question but never really had the chance to discuss it. So I will use this post to do that. Why didn't Estha run, or yell or say anything? We know he felt powerless, it says so, 'Estha held it because he had to." (98) but could he not scream or protest in anyway? No. It was impossible, fear gripped him, it paralyzed him. We can ask what was he afraid of, the man? certainly not had he screamed people would of come, they would of heard him and they would of come to his aid, surely no one would of held him in the wrong. I think what it was that he was afraid of was people no longer loving him, no longer caring about him because he was no longer innocent. I think he blamed himself. After all it was his hand that held the Orangedrink Lemondrink man's penis. It was his but that the man pinched when he was done, and it was he who sat there drinking Lemontoolemon while seamen rolled all down his hand. How could anyone love him after he had just done all of this? How could he love himself? On page 101 after he had gone back into the movie theater, him and Rahel sit there asking the stern yet comforting, white, face of Baron von Trapp, if he could love them. To help him decide, they ask themselves a few questions comparing themselves to the children and people does love. I think question d says it all. Not only does it make them feel unloved it begings to sow the seed of self-loathing because for everything they are that is "wrong" Sophie Mol is "right". She is white, well-behaved, and has never held in her hand a strangers penis. And maybe if she has never done that, the Baron can love her. But never could he ever love them.